Hi guys, Im back from my holiday ^^ I had heaps of fun and feel alot better, atleast i did until an hour after i landed fromn my plane and dad told mne we were going to look at a new school for me

I luv TMC so bad, its the best school ive ever been to and io have so many friends there. Im goign to miss them all so much so sory if i am all emo and depressed over the next few weeks.

I arrived home thismorning, went for an interview at this horse college and Dad has already signed me up... I start tomorrow

His GF Rita is ruining everything. I was filling out the form and it asked for my adress. I don't even have a home!! So depressing *le sigh*.

This school will open doors for me, but im not looking forward to living with yet another family. And this time i dont even know the women... I just pleed she has a hot son... maybe then i'll pull through XD

So... Im not sure if I'll have time... or a scanner... or internet... so... this could be the end of my DA days sadly. Gaawd im gunna cry XD Must not cry!!

So.... yeah... Brindle and Twili, feel free to keep RPing and doing whatever you like with Danny and Thorn. Bracken missed his guurl, so Nieko you had better let him move in with Moose for awhile ^^. Vinnie can go into Rehab, but Demyx and Kirara better stay with me.

Im never going to finish Destoria at this rate -.- This reminds me of that awesome song that came out awhile ago. IU remembered it today as we drove away from Traintech 2000 (my new college... here is a link [link].au)

Flames to dust,
lovers to friends,
why do all good things come to an end?

Dogs are whistling to a new tune,
barking at the new moon,
hoping it will come soon
so that they an die...

OKAY so the last bit does not fit buts its cool. So... I am alittle broken into peices atm, sorry. I really just need to drown myself into this new school and try and forget everything.

The most sad bit was tonight i was supposed to go into a motel. Rita changed her mind AGAIN. She does not want me in her house with dad... so he booked me into a motel. Laura (my sis) and mum were worried id get raped staying alone in a motel on surfers (surfers paradise... party hotspot and lots of fun... until you get hit by a car, or gang raped, etc etc...) so i am staying with them until Traintech calls my new foster family anbd asks if i can stay.

PLUS I had to get a cervical cancer jab today my arm hurts

I know i am talking lots but i need to just explain this so hopefully you guys will understand and not ask me or beg me to stay... cause that will make it harder.

I miss the days when i had a family, and went to school, and had friends and was a normal kid. I know im 16... going seventeen... soon to graduate... but im not thrity... im still a kid... why is everyone expecting me to change? I can't do it like this... not weithout a family. I have family but they're almost as broken as the titanic grumbling at the sea. Half of me is so excited about this new school. I get 2 hour lessons every morning, get to strap on satudays and am garuanteed a secure future in horse racing AND the uni i want to go to.

But... i dont want to live with strangers... and go through this alone... I dont want to leave my friends at TMC. I know some may want to keep in touch but... Ive done this before... a few weeks pass and we will chat over MSN/IM. Then it will slowly decrese top 'hey... how are you?''fine, yourself?''yeah good.' And then awkward silence, until eventually they just dont bother anymnore to stay friends. I've been to nine, soon to be ten schools in my life. Not heaps, but enough to see that i have had many ebst frienbds, yet only two have stood by me. Its hard to think all my friends i luv so much will eventually not care anymore. The guy I like... the formal... all those normal things im going to miis out on. And my class is only small... most of them bloody asians whop can't talk a scrap of english... and i bet ill be the youngest. I'll be so dam lonely and bored, i cant even drive yet.

But hey, my dad says he still loves me. I dont know how far that love with stretch until Rita has him kicking me onto the curb. Me and mum will never be the same, i can never trust her again and forget what she did to me. My brother is dead for all i know, and one of my sisters seems to side with my mum all the time and the other lives so far away. Broken little family, broken little world. Three years okay everything was okay... now its just crazy. If something happens, i dont know where I can go. My rellies are all in egland, my dads GF thinks i am in inncolent, selfish, spoilt, rude little cow and my mum and me and still rough. I hate relying on people, but i cant rely on myself either. Its glad to know atlead i can imagine my charries being there for me.

ANYWAYS i have to go, feel free to hatre my emo speech tara'!